I was absolutely stuck. I could think of nothing inspiring, mind-altering, thought provoking to write about. So I didn’t write, I allowed myself to remain stuck. Waiting. And waiting. And waiting.
Yesterday I had the most amazing Spiritual Aura reading by a beautiful soul. One of the first things she did was take her gold chalk and make a nest of golden squiggles. She looked at me and said, “This is your writing. What are you writing!?” I had to admit that I wasn’t at the moment. But that ends today!
I’m going to become vulnerable. Right now, right on this page.
I struggle. Daily. Sometimes all day. I’ve come to realize and actually embrace that this is okay and probably way more normal than I realize. I think the release of admitting this is profound, in many, many ways.
It first makes me look at my belief system and then to LET IT GO. I was pretty much taught that if you can’t do it right (or ideally perfect) don’t bother to do it at all. So that pretty much sums up where I way too often find myself-doing nothing at all. This is a very sad, defeated place to be, and it is so unnecessary, because Hallelujah I am not perfect! Never will be, never need to be, and that is a beautiful and freeing place to be! (I can literally feel my vibration raise as I type…in my pajamas…might as well embrace vulnerability to the fullest!)
I am working on stepping out of my comfort zone, which if we truly step forward makes us extremely vulnerable. I am realizing that stepping forward into the light is also the only way I can grow and evolve. With this realization also comes the truth that the Universe supports me and sends me the lessons, gifts, and people that I need. Even if we are hanging out on a limb, someone or something will be there to catch us if and when we fall.
When I allow myself to be vulnerable, I also have to trust. Trust the process, the journey, and most importantly myself. To listen to my intuition again is like being reunited with a VERY old and dear friend who has been on the line the whole time, just waiting for me to pick up.
I do love the quote, “What others think of me, is none of my business.” -Eleanor Roosevelt. But loving a quote and practicing it can be two different things, and to practice this philosophy is to be vulnerable. I am tearing down my ‘perfect’ wall and stepping into my light, my vulnerable, vulnerable light. Join me, won’t you!?
PS In answer to my reading, “What are you writing?” A blog entry for one and a children’s book for my new granddaughter Octavia (Ta as in TaDa!!!) This PS is really exposing my vulnerability…
In light and love, Lori